I’ll be honest, I’m falling behind my own schedule here. My saltmine work really exploded during the last two weeks and it looks like it will only get more intense during the next few months ((They are also cracking down on working-from-home, which I would use in the past to catch-up during the week on TMSR work)). I’ve been having to take work home with me too, this weekend was spent playing catch-up on saltmine work. I was not able to do anything TMSR related this week save for look into new hosters for MP’s commissioned bot.
I need to refocus here and make some adjustments. But specifically how I go about doing that is just as important as knowing what needs to be done, so I will try to plan that out below.
As I see it, there are two main lacks in my life right now: a lack of control over my time, and a lack of control over my financial well-being. Honestly they are both pretty related, and as long as I do not have a handle on any of those things I doubt I will be able to contribute in any meaningful way to things that matter to me.
In terms of remedies to the above, I really need to be focusing more on getting a better saltmine job. ((Defined as one that 1) pays ~what I’m getting now and 2) allows me to work where and when I see fit as long as I get shit done)) I’ve been job searching on the side for the last 8 weeks but have not applied anywhere, and I will admit that I haven’t been keeping track of things I find very well. ((It hasn’t been a very focused search- more like browsing indeed.com and such while in my cubicle at work.)) I even promised a review of what I had found, but I have nothing organized right now; in other words my Master was right in that I cannot even claim that I put in those hours. So, the specific remedy here is that I will find at least two jobs per week and apply to them; and document who they were and what the jobs was, etc.
Related to my other lack (financial well-being) is the two-story elephant I’m typing this review from inside of; I need to get this goddamn house cleaned out and sell it. After moving my gf out of the house about 6 months ago I still have not touched a single box, cleared a single thing out of the house, cleaned up any bits of the yard etc. Meanwhile I’m still paying that inflated mortgage payment every while this cardboard house continues to age in the moist NC climate. I’m also quite isolated these days; my friends and family are hundreds of miles away and I rarely go out save for groceries or errands. I’m going slightly mad each day in this house. I need to start attacking this thing in pieces, so each week I will commit to something related to freeing myself from this anchor, be it simply “go through X amount of boxes in Y room”.
Overall, this strategy where I blindly go full throttle into TMSR work on one leg has not been working out for me. I need to pull back a bit while I dedicate my time to more personal things; basically I’m still a bit of a child and need to grow up a tad before I’m ready to fully contribute.
So, I think I need to pull back a bit while I get my shit together. By “pull back” I mean that I will need to drop some TMSR work to focus on other TMSR work as well as my own shit. Specifically, I think I will not be able to contribute to the OS effort for some time; I simply don’t have the time to invest in the remedial learning while maintaining everything else. Definitely not while I still owe Mircea Popescu that logger at least, and probably not when I still have long neglected maintenance on various infrastructure.
In summation, I’d like to drop my TMSR OS work and focus primarily on getting logger done, then other needed maintenance. I also still owe that last Penance article which I’d still like to publish. My remaining hours I would like to put towards getting my long neglected shits together.
(I will hold off on my weekly plan until I hear what Diana Coman says. Plus I am still thinking about it)