This was a tough week. I think if I look back later I will find that it was positive and productive overall, but at the moment I find my thoughts more focused on the negatives.
Perhaps then I should start with the good parts. From my overloaded plan, I completed: six blog articles, on all the intended topics and then some; won some auctions and made most of the necessary travel arrangements to pick up the goods; worked out photo-blogging with MP-WP; and began explaining and listing the next stages of development on my offline Bitcoin wallet. Besides this was: continued progress on training development and delivery; my first substantial discussion in #trilema, on the nature of my own distribution and plans for a Republican OS; substantial review and feedback for Robinson on his big article on our business plan; getting signed delivery instructions as promised to an eager asciilifeform; and communicating my difficulty in paying an invoice, which to my knowledge remains awaiting update from trinque.
My articles were inconsistent in meeting the length requirement, and at first I was getting to them at the very end of the day or later. As my Master put it, “you clearly push those out of sight and out of mind and you’d push them out of the edge of the world if only it were flat enough to allow such a thing!”
When she asked when I would switch to mornings, an inner negotiation ensued between my avoidant and slavedriving parts (perhaps id and superego if there’s utility in the Freudian terms):
“Eh, I’ll do it some time soon…”
“But you gotta be specific and have deadlines to hold yourself accountable.”
“Okay, next week then :P”
“But why can’t it be done now?”
“It could, I just don’t wanna.”
“Well is that a good reason?”
“…”
So indeed I started the next day, and it’s mostly been a pleasant change, though of course there’s now worrying the evening before. It was good to see confirmation of what I had suspected, that “your writing problem is not with quantity but with topic and on tech you can and do write just fine”. Specifically, it’s the things that flow from a driving inner necessity to express them that come most readily.
The other failures were researching apartment options (again; at this point I think I’ll just go ahead and see what the landlord has to say; I know I’ve already got a pretty good deal, there’s a lot I appreciate about both the place and the management, and there’s bigger priorities now), investigating undelivered pingbacks (again), and keeping up with ALL the reading in a timely manner at least at a first pass. Today’s would-be blog article is also an embarassment; I said that I would apply the time toward a larger upcoming item on the wallet, but I now must admit that this didn’t happen (exactly as my Master perhaps saw coming). And to state the obvious, these reviews are still getting pushed to the last minute.