Young Hands Club

Somehow managed to do less work than last week – 9 hours vs 11. Bleurgh. I went AWOL on Tuesday, maybe partly for reasons of ego defence after Diana pointed out my superficial habit of doing whatever’s easiest when it comes to work. I was blind to my fault, and I’m grateful she pointed it out. How best to show that gratitude? Change.

Rather than running/hiding from the issue, I need to fix it. Replace “what’s the least amount of work I can do to solve this problem?” with “what’s the best job I can do?”; “how can I grow the most while doing this?”

I’ve been focusing solely on the solution, without realising that the process of solving is where the learning/growth happens.

I’ve also been thinking about my relationship with Diana: what I want it to be; what I can do to make it so. I want mentorship, pointing out of my blindspots; meaning flowing from a structure of authority – to work on what matters, so I matter too.

What can I do to achieve this sort of relationship? The YH project has shut; things aren’t as they were before, but the Pageboy’s Pledge still looks like good practice:

I ask for help to expose and correct my mistakes so that I can learn from them and grow to be a better person.

I commit to my own improvement through training as directed by my Master.

I practice at all times unflinching honesty towards myself, my peers, my betters and my Master.

I open myself up to take in fully and make the most of my Master’s feedback whenever gifted and in any form given.

I submit to my Master’s judgement at all times.

Along with a line from the YH homepage:

The focus is on killing stupidity on sight, not on protecting egos, feelings, inner idjits and other unhelpful constructions.

I can work hard, change (not run!) in response to Diana’s feedback, and grow into the best possible version of myself.

I’ll keep doing all the lifestyle fixes from last week’s review.