Young Hands Club

This week the examination and reflection were cranked up. Contrary to the plan I had initially drafted for the week, drafting and drafting again a comprehensive plan of action for Qntra came to dominate the week. This makes the week’s expenditure of time difficult to project forward from, but the reboot of Qntra operations emerging from the planning process is making it clear that future weeks won’t look like they did before this week either.

Of the tasks I had laid out in the plan I managed to complete several drafts without yet producing one ready to label final, I managed to take some notes through the day, ((The big observation is that without having started the week with a concrete time budget, I let the drafting of plans displace many other things. A smaller observation is that Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I had been finding myself getting exhausted disappointingly early suggesting that in budgeting time I can’t weigh all potentially productive hours equally. )) reviewed and delivered feedback on homework I assigned as part of the Qntra course consuming a bit more than two hours in doing so, handled Qntra submissions as they came in though I have one lead that’s drawn me into extended reading to address in my role as writer of last resort, attended Spanish Class, and begun reviewing this week and preparing plans for the next.

The growth of the scope of the planning displaced completing the portion I wanted to though I have a better handle on the shell’s builtin flow control tools to bring to the task, the errands I had scheduled for Thursday afternoon, and the Saturday block of time I had anticipated using to get AWstats to eat Qntra’s access.log. As disappointing as these misses could be, they highlight for me the necessity of opening absolutely everything I had been doing up to re-examination. The planning process for Qntra going forward has made clear that the project isn’t just some tweaks or a small shift in direction, it is a reboot of everything operations side while preserving the high quality of reporting. More importantly, I can see the necessity and that the only space for upside is in this structured, practical approach to reorganizing myself.

Reviewing this past week I found myself recieving more questions than I asked myself, and I’m grateful for it. What motivates me to do Qntra and attracts me to the Republic is a hatred towards the Pantsuitist system I grew up in. The US “higher ed” chumpatron chewed me up and I’m still very sore about that. However uncomfortable and unfamiliar these practical, structured methods I’m being shown may strike me on the first impression, I am grateful for Diana Coman’s attention in offering her time and attention to expose me to them. I am grateful for getting called out when I fall into the monkey habit of throwing shit to see what might stick to the problem in front of me.

For this coming week I’ve got to take this clarity, and actually budget my time like the scarce thing it is. I need to keep myself open to learning, remember the hate that motivates me, and ready myself to just fetch the damned arms when called to do so.