Somehow, getting moving on this week’s review has been even more fitful than usual. I keep planning to do them on Saturdays; of course this requires choosing to do it at the expense of something else at that time, and there’s never a shortage of easier (or at least more comfortable) yet still important things to get done at every juncture up until deferring is no longer possible. It also requires enforcing my own deadline and working well rather than worshiping stupidity so as not to lose time on Saturday AND still have to finish on Sunday, and perhaps I’m not yet confident enough in my ability to do that without the external pressure.
Of course I have nothing to lose from looking honestly at the week. I spoke up about my failings… well not always, but then spoke up about that too:
jfw: ahoy, I’ve again failed to get my article written; I did make good headway on organizing my loose pile of thoughts on the family, so I won’t consider the time a waste.
jfw: I’ve noticed that one time-stretching self-delusion I’m prone to is “I haven’t yet sat down and logged a start time on task X, thus I’m now ‘preparing myself’ or something and can drag feet and it totally doesn’t count as time spent on Xjfw: I’ve made slow headway on the drafting, but I’m falling on face again as far as getting it done. whaack’s arriving momentarily. Will get back to it either tonight or more likely first thing tomorrow.
jfw: diana_coman: another day of failure to publish here. Seeing the spinning and wondering why I couldn’t stop, I turned to writing whatever thoughts, which turned into a kind of internal dialogue. If I’m not willing to put forward my thoughts as truth, I can at least posit and consider them
jfw: I also let myself get worked up / stressed yesterday from being again behind on my plan. And hesitated to speak up along the way because of… perhaps some shame at how slow things were going plus a vain hope that I’d somehow still get it all in.
jfw: Specifically – I’m not getting my 5 hours of wallet dev, and while I caught up on the #o log from break and got assorted blog reading in, I’ve barely made a dent in a mountain of #t backlog
Indeed this did not get me eaten; rather I received helpful feedback and course adjustments. Once back on the technical series I got four articles out with minimal fuss.
Further positives included getting out some blog responses on Gales Linux, completing training session delivery for our twice-weekly pilot clients, and spending two quality evenings with Will.
A regression was not keeping up with the daily journal. I had put it under “time permitting”, figuring I had a lot on the plate, and naturally time didn’t permit of its own accord. I’d like to get back to that and perhaps also use that time for closer examination of my time logs to get more value out of them.
That sounds rather contradictory in there: if it’s planned, then there is time set aside for it on Saturdays therefore how come it ends up at the expense of something else?
And everything to gain really. (Including not becoming an ostrich!)
How did it go with the daily journal and for how long did you keep up with it before your all mighty master the-unplanned-time stopped permitting it?
Comment by Diana Coman — January 20, 2020 @ 9:53 am
“That sounds rather contradictory in there” – myeah, I suppose by “planning” what I meant was “imagining I’d like to”, so not setting time aside.
There was no journal last week; in fact the last entry was the Friday prior (the 10th).
Comment by Jacob Welsh — January 21, 2020 @ 12:23 am